Thursday, March 21, 2013

Woes of a College Senior

You know… There are just times when you hate life. I know that’s not a Christian thing to say. As God’s children, we always have things to be thankful for. And I believe that with all my heart. There’s proof of that every day. Friends, family, roommates, beautiful weather, a clear night sky with moon and stars shining down. And yet we still find ourselves in spots where we just can’t see a way out. And it’s scary. So much work to do. So much to do. SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It doesn’t seem possible, especially considering the timeline. How can I get this done when I have a presentation to prepare? How can I complete this service learning project when I have tennis matches to play? How can I search for a job when this little thing called school is taking up all of my life? 
And then even more doubt seeps in. How can all this happen to me? What have I done? Was this the right choice? Was Concordia the best choice? Did I just pick the easy route that would get me through the next four years instead of trying to find something I would love doing? Why is it that I’m never included? Why am I so different? And I mean SO DIFFERENT. Why do people invite others to anything – and I do mean anything – right in front of me but fail to include me? Why does it matter so much to me? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be like everyone else?
Why did we have to graduate high school? I had figured so much out. Why do we have to continue to grow older? Why does the world demand we get jobs and have to pay taxes? Why do people fight so much? Why do wars continue to be a part of our existence? How far have we fallen? Why is life so hard? Does God still love me, even after EVERYTHING I’ve done? How could He? It doesn’t make any sense. How could He love us but put us through all of this? There’s so much we don’t know.
Why does Concordia cost so much? Why does the tennis team have no money? Why can’t Concordia put more money into the tennis team? We’re an athletic team, too… We have needs just like the women’s basketball team and the football team and the track team. Why isn’t the team more connected? We’re a TEAM. Why aren’t we close? Why were we separated from our friends back home when those friendships were so important to us?
Why is being emotional so uncommon for a guy? Why is it bad? Why are we looked at differently? If anything, we’re more mature than those idiots girls usually date. And we treat girls way better than those other tools do. Yet the dating paradigm is still against us. I’m sorry I’m not ripped with the IQ of a napkin. Why is love never reciprocated? Even friends don’t show it. So much is given. Being selfish is bad. I know that. What is the point of everything? If we’re all going to die eventually, why do we have to spend so much to go to college? Why is money so prevalent? If the world is such a bad place and we’re not supposed to dwell on things in it or of it, why are there such temptations? Why did Adam and Eve have to sin? Why are there movies that leave us wanting so much but can deliver nothing? Why does my imagination run wild? So many bad things come from it. Dwelling on ideas instead of acting.
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Yeah… it’s a lot. But then there are those times when life is… beautiful. We have so much. God truly loves us and cares for us every day. It will all work out in the end. God will see it done. He promises.

Success!!

I have finally found out how to get to my blog at school. Thank you, other student in Science of Everyday Things! Someday, I'll finally get this thing back on track, but today isn't that day. Stress is at maximum level and I'm just trying to get through each day as it comes. But no worries. I'm still alive, and I don't intend on giving up anytime soon. Here's hoping you're all having a better semester than me!

Talk to you soon.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

While I Have A Moment...

So... here we are. 2013. A new year. Can you believe it?

I finally found a way to get on my account. For whatever reason, I can only connect when I'm at home in Galva. For this reason, I've been unable to post for a LONG time. Sadly, this is only a post to make sure you all know I'm still alive. I will continue to post in the future, but for now, I'm just saying hello, happy new year, and God's blessings!

More coming (hopefully) soon.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

My Own Fellowship

Life is hard. Very hard. There's never a time when we feel completely relaxed because we know there will always be something more to do. To accomplish. To suffer through. The whole reason we're alive is because we haven't yet fulfilled God's plan for our lives. Otherwise, He would've called us to Him. To be called to Him is His way of saying, "You've done well, my child. Rest." And that day will be a glorious day, indeed.

But this is now, and now is ugly. My life has never been more stressful, chaotic, busy, or full of responsibility. I've never felt so overwhelmed, helpless, useless, or drained. Like Frodo, I've journeyed far. And like Frodo, I fade more and more as the journey continues. The countless anxiety, pressure, and weight forced on my shoulders by this world grows stronger every day while I grow weaker. Each day is a struggle with no end in sight.

But like Frodo, I've been given gifts. Friends. Allies. Lifelines. It's not possible to make it through this life without aid, but everyone receives help in different ways. Some rely on pets. Some trust their job to anchor them down. Me? I've been given an everlasting fellowship to help me through these troubles times. Each member has been equipped with weapons to help me fight my demons, as well as their own. Each individual brings something unique to our friendship, which only helps to strengthen our bonds. The fellowship is not complete unless we're all present and working together to push, strengthen, and support each other. Like Frodo, I have eight companions. And like Frodo, they've each provided me with undying loyalty. Who are these eight heroes? Let's begin.

Ashley Drey: A thoughtful glance, a fair and gentle face, and a personality of gold. Slender and tall, she stands proud of her accomplishments but holds an air of humility and grace unparalleled by any other. She's strong and stern as steel when the time calls for it. A fearless and high-hearted conscience allows her to take on obstacles with a confidence matched only by her bravery to bring her best. She's a true warrior. Ashley, you're my Eowyn.

Breanna Mathes: Charming and beautiful. The epitome of beauty and the symbol of a fair lady. She's one of the most supportive people I know, a characteristic that is accentuated by her high spirits and willingness to believe in the good in everyone. She never gives up or abandons hope, even when all others are in despair. She brings courage, resolve, and valor to the fellowship, as well as a bright smile, resounding laugh, and sparkling personality. Breanna, you're my Arwen.


Olivia Leuschen: She offers spiritual aid, giving counsel and encouragement during the darkest moments of my quest. She provides light that shines brighter than any star in the night sky. Her wisdom is unmatched. Her sense of right and wrong guide her every move, making her a tough customer in a pickle. Her grace and ability to rise above all others make her an irreplaceable member of this fellowship. Olivia, you're my Galadriel.


Heidi Kistenmacher: She holds her ground when her values are challenged instead of giving way like the girlish gossip she's believed to be. She provides a pure and fresh outlook to any situation. Her ability to transform everything around her to be the same as her bubbly personality is second to none. Her air of honesty and integrity coupled with her hunger for the truth and well-being of her fellow companions make her an invaluable member of this fellowship. Heidi, you're my Goldberry.


Eric Rasmussen: He symbolizes honesty and kindness. A fantastic story-teller and wise advisor. He uses his "powers" only for good and never falls into bad situations. Everything he does is done deliberately and with deep thought. He's the reassuring presence the fellowship relies upon to change a frantic situation to one of security and direction. He encourages each of us to be the best we can be and sees our potential and ability even when we do not. Eric, you're my Gandalf.

John Harris: He's not afraid of danger. A brave and loyal member of the fellowship, he's broad-shouldered and strong as a horse. At times mischievous, he can always be relied upon to be there for any other member. Light-hearted but sincere, he provides a common-sense approach to any outlook of any situation. Shrewd and calculating, he never misses an opportunity to poke fun at another fellowship member. John, you're my Gimli.

Ben Grieme: Not frightened by forces of nature. In fact, a certain unity with nature helps him. He enjoys wandering around in nature, listening to the singing birds, chattering squirrels, and scurrying rabbits. His love for animals is unmatched by any other in the fellowship. He can be called a philosopher to some extent and is an excellent marksman. He believes in people and is a true patriot to the fellowship's cause, making him one of its most loyal members. Ben, you're my Legolas.

John Lorenzen: Full of love and admiration for his friends. He possesses a unique sense of foresight and intuition, using his values and life experiences to guide his decisions and relationships. He has a clearly defined sense of right and wrong as well as a taste for adventure. He is the embodiment of faithfulness, simplicity, and decisiveness. It's nearly impossible to find a more honest character. He's confident and supportive. His dedication makes him one of the most important members to our fellowship. When I've given up and he finds strength to carry me - that's his shining moment. He never leaves me even when circumstances are at their most dangerous. Because of this, he's my best friend and constant companion, loyal and pure. John, you're my Sam.

There you have it. My lifelines. My friends. My lights in this world. They've never been snuffed out. Any idea what it's like to know that they never will be? They've given me more than I ever thought possible and continue to do so every single day. I don't need to communicate with them to understand how important our friendship is. The fellowship speaks for itself. We find strength in each other and make it possible to face one more day. For that one day brings us even closer together.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Always By My Side

"I will stand by you. I will help you through. When you've done all you can do, and you can't cope, I will dry your eyes. I will fight your fight. I will hold you tight, and I won't let go."
- Rascall Flatts

Let's get one thing straight. I'm not a fan of Rascall Flatts. At most, there are two or three songs that I can listen to from the group, but that's it. The good news is that this post is not about Rascall Flatts. I feel that if it was, it would not be received very well. This post is about something much more interesting. The subject of this post is much more unique, selfless, inspiring, and trustworthy than Rascall Flatts. And I can say that with absolute certainty, for even though I haven't met any members of the Rascall Flatts band, I have met this woman, and I'm delighted to report that she's one of my closest and dearest friends.

Her name is Olivia. Olivia Caroline Leuschen. (Sorry, Olivia. Your secret's out). She's a 21-year-old graduate of Galva-Holstein High School and is currently a junior studying political science at Iowa State University. She is an excellent pianist, flute player, choir singer, pen pal, and everything in between. She is one of the most talented individuals I know and uses her gifts to benefit others. There's so much more to say about her, but to include everything would require thousands and thousands of pages - pages I do not have the privilege of owning.

I've known Olivia since middle school. Anyone will tell you that I have the worst memory of any human being, (with the exception of my roommate), and therefore, I'm unsure about the date that we actually became acquainted. What I remember most about those years in middle school was that the flute section in band chaired so many girls. (That, and the study halls Olivia and I spent coming up with the most ridiculous classmate scenarios. We'll call them relationship scenarios). And honestly, none of those flute girls were good. It was middle school. No one was good.

Except for Olivia. She improved every single day and by the time we got to high school, she had asserted her dominance by taking on the responsibility of leading the flute section. (An argument could be made that Kayla Elemond, as first chair, held that responsibility. But if you were actually in that band, you would know who really wore the pants in that section). Very soon it became obvious that Olivia was extremely talented with all kinds of music, not just band. She was an incredible singer, which was sort of a letdown when the caliber of the high school choir was considered. Yet that didn't stop her from participating in some stellar solos and assorted small groups.

It was because of band that Olivia and I became close. Although I must also give credit to my older brother Caleb, for if he hadn't have taken me on so many fun outings - outings that Olivia also frequented - we might never have ignited that spark. It all began freshman year with MORP parties, after-school study sessions, and band concerts. From there, our friendship blossomed. By junior year, we were "thick as thieves," as Jack Sparrow - Captain Jack Sparrow, excuse me - would say. We went to movies, played cat-and-mouse, assigned Capture the Flag missions to team members, braved the darkness of my church basement to play some hide-and-seek, and everything in-between. I finally had that group of friends I had always wanted, and Olivia was one of the biggest reasons why that happened.

And then came SENIOR YEAR. I've referenced it so many times, but it was such a good year that I will never tire of talking about it. By senior year, our group had solidified itself and we were practically inseparable. Torso, Rocky, my two secret agents - codename: Breanna and Heidi - Giff, EStache, Dirty Ashley, and Harris... the world was ours. We still don't know how we all came to be together, but I figure it's foolish to question something that is so wonderful. What I do know is that it was because of Olivia that I was welcomed into this group: a group that has changed my life and a group I could never live without. It's because of Olivia that I experienced one of the greatest years of my life during senior year, and since then, memories have only gotten more memorable.

But here is where I make my confession: I never gave Olivia the credit that was due. I spent so much time focusing on other aspects of my life that I deemed tremendously important: trying to come up with the best way to make myself happy, lauding another friend just because he helped me through some tough times, complaining when things didn't go my way... the list goes on and on. I am one of the most self-centered people in the world, and no one can deny it. It's so obvious sometimes that I wonder how I even have friends in the first place. Whenever I talk to anyone, I somehow manage to manipulate the conversation to center on me and how my life sucks and how I'm such an innocent little guy who has bad things happen to him without fail. It's just not fair, I always say to myself. Unfortunately, Olivia received the brunt of this behavior. When I wasn't sulking in my own self-pity sessions, I was crying to her about how I deserve so much more than I have and how no one could possibly understand because of course I'm the first and only person to experience these feelings. I burdened her with so many useless thoughts and completely wasted time that I wouldn't be surprised to hear if at times she told people I needed to see a therapist. Who knows? Maybe I should see a therapist...

But that in itself is the quality I love most about Olivia. (Not the idea that she tells people I need to see a therapist. Although if anyone knows of a good one, maybe give me a call...). No no. The thing I love most about Olivia is that she actually cares. She takes time out of her own busy schedule to inquire how I'm dealing with mine. She takes a break from her endless list of responsibilities to listen to me complain about mine. She keeps up her end of the college-visit bargain even though I completely fail at mine. She's dealt with all of my insecurities - all of my horrible idiosyncrasies - with an incredible amount of grace, honesty, and, at times, her own sense of humor. She pushes me that extra little bit whenever I need that extra kick to get me moving. She's always willing to listen to my self-pity sessions, and she doesn't even charge me for them! If she did, she'd probably be a millionaire by now. She's one of the nicest people I know, but when the time calls for it, she won't hesitate to give a firm but caring backhand to the face. Maturity doesn't even begin to describe the way she deals with each of these situations. Why? Because for a 21-year-old, she's dealt with issues that most people don't come up against in their entire lives. Even in her most desperate times of hardship and heartbreak, she's able to rely on the immense stores of poise and strength she accumulates from past experiences. These characteristics filter into every part of her life: family, friends, and, even though it's new, her relationship status (congratulations, again). They allow her to overcome any obstacle that dares to confront her. She may seem like a weak target, what with her only being 5'5" and all, but what she lacks in height she more than makes up for with her ability to overpower the world and any problems it might throw at her. Her unconscious ability to pass on that power to others is one of the most liberating gifts I've ever encountered, and one I will continue to be thankful for until the day I die.

So here's to you, Olivia. You have definitely stood by me, helped me through, dried my eyes, and fought my fights. Holding me tight would require us to have the sort of relationship you have with Tyler, so we'll skip that part for now. You're one of the few reasons why I still function as a human being. I'm still (relatively) sane because you've always been there for me, even when you didn't have the time or patience to be. I've never been able to repay the favor because compared to you, who could? Nobody. You've heard more of my problems, listened to more of my rants, and comforted more of my misgivings than any other person I know. And yet you're always willing to do more. I know that if all else fails, you'll forever be by my side to help me through it all. You mean more to me than words can express. Your friendship has helped define my life and will continue to do so for many years. For that, and for so many other things on which I forgot to comment, thank you. From the bottom of my heart. May I never lose sight of the fact that you are one of the greatest gifts I could ever receive, simply because you keep on giving. You'll never stop because that's who you are.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Goodbye 2011

You know that moment when you realize that so far, you've been failing so badly at life that even your 14-year-old sister is better at it than you? (Although, honestly, Emily really is rocking the early teenage life. If anyone wanted advice on how to improve their situations at that stage of life's journey, they may wanna shoot a text her way). That point, though, has been upon me for some time now. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I have no motivation, sustenance, or interest in changing the fact that to this point, I quite frankly have not taken life very seriously. And therein lies my biggest flaw: an unwilling resolve to accept reality. On my 20th birthday, I mentioned a world I've had to rebuild twice, each time adding new quirks and building new fortresses. Yet one of my fatal mistakes has been to allow imperfections to remain. Inspiration to find that perfect job doesn't exist. The power of my will lacks in even the most basic areas. The drive to improve qualities that need polishing has slowly eroded away, only to be replaced by a reluctance to accept change and how severely it is... changing... my life. It's unnerving at times to think of how everyone around me is so strong and almost, if not completely, rooted down with confidence in their beliefs, senses, and ideas. To say that I'm not quite there yet is a colossal understatement.

And yet, we've now bid farewell to another year. Another year of laughter, fun, sadness, defeat, triumph, agony, loss, and renewal... Gone. Finished. Completed. Another colossal understatement would be someone saying that 2011 went quickly. It's almost becoming cliche, isn't it? Another year of experiences, relationships, difficulties, and perseverance has been absorbed into our existence, helping to solidify our personalities, responsibilities, and character. We've inducted the most memorable moments into the Hall of Memories, where they will be forever cherished and adored. Up until this point in my life, I'm sad to say that I've mostly focused on the bad, the depressing, the sad, and the frustrating. Again - motivation to change? Practically non-existent.

But we've now entered a new year. A chance to truly start over. The ability to shake loose the bonds of previous debts and begin new transactions in life. "You only live once" is a very popular saying, and one we'll all continue to hear until the day we die. But carpe diem could hardly have said it better - it's our day. Let's seize it. It's our chance to take control of the chaos surrounding us, and by so doing, create order in the pandemonium that eternally surrounds and threatens us. It's up to us to create those memories, to forge those everlasting relationships, so that one day, we'll be able to look back on these years - every fight, every victory, every loss, every A+, every F, every promotion, every dismissal, every laugh, every tear - and smile.

And above all, we must never lose sight of the hope that we find in Jesus Christ, for it is because of him that we are able to live life to the fullest. The Bible tells us that "No one - not even one who has not heard of the Bible or of Christ - has an excuse for not honoring God, because the whole created world reveals him." God gives us blessings that we are incapable of numbering because they are as numerous as the grains of sand on the seashore. Looking back, part of a message I received contained these words: "Focus on positive things, for then you will have far greater to write about." It is with that idea that I will end: below, enjoy some of the memorable times I experienced in the year 2011. 

- Welcomed Chloe Ann Kinney into our home over the winter and became best friends during the summer.
- Enjoyed one of the greatest tennis seasons of my life. Not because of the record, but because of the people and places.
- Completed my second year of college with a stellar GPA and even better memories.
- Gained valuable experience working at King's Pointe Waterpark & Resort.
- Got a taste of the "grown-up" world during the summer because of the front desk position.
- Came to appreciate my friends even more than before because of the diversity of our work schedules.
- Came out of my shell just a smidge during the Fall Semester. As a result, two magnificent group presentations were given.
- Enjoyed rooming with Preston Sunderman for the third straight semester. Man, we certainly do have our fun.

And then it was time to pack up and head home for Christmas. The rest, as they say, is history.

Things I Learned in 2011
~ My first impressions are improving.
~ If I hate a class enough, I'll leave and go get some food. Or explore basements.
~ Some tennis shoes only last two weeks.
~ I am incredibly blessed with the greatest friends and the most loving family.
~ I'm still capable of asking out the opposite sex, however awkward it may be.
~ I made the wrong decision when I chose Business for a major.
~ To set things right, I'm gonna need to put on my big boy pants and take control of my life in 2012.

I had hoped to change the world in 2011. I now deem that an unfit challenge because it's something that is extremely hard to measure. Yet one thing is for certain: My world certainly changed in those 365 days. I've come to the conclusion that it's not possible to completely reconstruct something as complicated as "our world." Why? Because it's forever changing. So instead of some deeply intense goal, I'll simply say this: be you. Live. Love. Grow. Dare. Cry. Laugh. And never forget that you're special. More so than you can possibly imagine. Here's to making 2012 the best year it can possibly be!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

You're The One

It's hard to be alone this time of year. We're all heading home to see loved ones for the holidays, but some are even luckier to be able to add a significant other to that group. And in light of everyone here at school getting engaged and running off together, things certainly seem to be happening pretty fast. Since I don't have anyone, I'll spend the next few minutes promising the best of myself to that special someone. Someday, she'll come along.

I promise to never laugh at you when you fall on the ice. Unless you laugh first. Then, after helping you up and making sure you're all right, I'll join in.

I promise to make you my world. No matter how cluttered it seems to be at the time.

I promise to add a little love to those chocolate chip cookies I'll make you whenever you want them.

I promise to let you win when we go out and play tennis. Sometimes.

I promise to laugh at your jokes even when I don't understand them.

I promise to turn off the Christmas music if you're getting tired of it. You're that important to me.

I promise to make you breakfast in bed whenever you're not up to the task of making it yourself. I can't, however, promise it will be as delicious as when you actually make it yourself.

I promise to clean up my mess afterwards. Let's face it. Guys can be good cooks, but we're also messy customers.

I promise to be the softest cuddler but hard as a rock when it comes to protecting you.

I promise to buy you flowers just so your day can have a little sunshine.

I promise to throw that blanket on you when you fall asleep on the couch.

I promise to let you cry as much as you need to without intruding with questions like "What happened?" and "Are you all right?" If you're crying, something is clearly wrong, but it doesn't mean you want to talk about it.

I promise to have the most attentive ears.

I promise that I will cry. Someday. And there's a chance that day might come when we're watching Toy Story 3.

I promise to put actual thought into buying you gifts on special occasions.

For all other occasions, I promise the same.

I promise you can have a say in naming our children. After our first daughter.

I promise to let you dress me up whenever you feel you need to take me shopping.

I promise to like your family. Even when I don't.

I promise to help you wash the dishes. Let's face it. Just need a little mood music.

I promise to spend as much time as I need to get you that huge stuffed animal at the carnival or amusement park. Whether it be five minutes (most cases), or two hours (if you want more than one).

I promise to be there for you with a hot bowl of soup and a movie when you're sick so I can make you feel better. Softest of cuddlers, remember. And when the time is right, we'll add ice cream or chocolate to that mix.

I promise to understand that you need to have five million different pairs of shoes.

I promise to put thought into it when you tell me I need more pairs of shoes.

I promise to treat you like my girlfriend/wife when I'm hanging out with "the guys." If you're cool enough to want to hang out with my guy friends, you deserve at least that. You deserve so much more because you picked me.

I promise to tell you you're beautiful every single day. And mean it.

I promise to sit through a chick flick even if I feel like watching a thrilling action movie.

Most important of all, I promise to love you with all that I am, all that I have, and all that I hold dear. You will be my life. You - and the adorable babies we'll have someday. I promise to do these things even when we're old and sitting in our chairs, looking back on the life we've lived together. We'll cherish all of the memories we created with each other: the good and the bad. For even through those bad times, I'll have had you by my side - an ever-present source of love and hope. Whenever you choose to enter my life, I will forever remember that day: the day that the rest of my life will begin. Until then, whoever you are, I can't wait to meet you.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Tis The Season

Motivation is at an all-time low. Classes are winding down, and with them, another year is coming to a close. Homework is reaching its climax and the studying for those dreaded finals has begun. Only one more week of regular class time until that fateful first morning when we are called to recall all we know, or at least, all we think we know, about our respective courses. Concerts are planned, sporting events are scheduled, and temperatures bring chills to the warmly dressed. Yes, it is definitely Christmas season.

A time for family. From the youngest to the oldest, this time of year is perfect for showing the appreciation they deserve.
A time for friends. Those closest, and even those not so much. Anyone deserves a smile. Those closest to you deserve a lot more.
A time for relaxation. After those finals, that is. You've earned it.
A time for safety. It's good to have fun. It's also good to be responsible.
A time for food. Enjoy that home-cooked wonderfulness while you can. You who are "seasoned" understand that home food is one of the greatest blessings on the face of the Earth.
A time for games. There are so many options when you hang out with others.
A time for memories. It's the most magical time of the year. An unwritten rule exists that says memories are forever engraved in your life during this special time. Don't waste those opportunities.

Love. Live. Laugh. Give. Grow. Inspire. And have fun while doing it.

Friday, November 25, 2011

11/24/11: Assembling All Thanks

Yesterday was, as its title implied, a day of thanksgiving. To start, these are thanksgivings I've had each day for the past 24 days.

11/1/11: Senior year of jazz band.
11/2/11: 2008-2009 basketball season.
11/3/11: The gingko tree in Flora.
11/4/11: Today I am thankful for pictures. Pictures on my laptop, pictures in my room, and pictures all around that remind me of wonderful moments of the past.
11/5/11: "Remember, remember, the 5th of November." I'm thankful for V For Vendetta. Such a great movie!
11/6/11: I LOVE my family and am so incredibly thankful for each and every one of them. It's been a great weekend.
11/7/11: I'm thankful for the necklace hand-crafted for me almost a year ago.
11/8/11: So begins the longest day of my life. However, I'm thankful for Tony Almeda. What an amazing character.
11/9/11: SO thankful for tests that are over and done with, along with exciting activities to partake in at night.
11/10/11: Very thankful that I've never had a problem with registering for classes. Let's hope that keeps up.
11/11/11: Such a unique day. I'm incredibly thankful for all of the opportunities we get because we live in this great nation that's protected by the most dedicated men and women in the world. Thank you, veterans.
11/12/11: Today I'm thankful for those days that remain in my life where I can sleep in. They may not happen much longer, but for now, they're so wonderful.
11/13/11: Today I'm thankful for wonderful church hymns that let me sing praises to my Lord. To go along with that, I'm thankful for amazing organists who can really bring out the beauty of these hymns that allow me to sing all the louder.
11/14/11: Today is a day to be thankful for beautiful weather that still blesses us with its presence.
11/15/11: Today I'm thankful for volleyball and the talents God has given to me to use to praise His name.
11/16/11: I'm thankful for the beautiful moon and stars God puts in the sky.
11/17/11: I'm so very thankful for the honest people in this world.
11/18/11: Today I'm thankful for Robin Williams, Whose Line Is It Anyway?, and THANKSGIVING BREAK!!!
11/19/11: I'm so so so thankful for the wonderful bed in my room that lets me sprawl out all big and tall. Love it.
11/20/11: Today, I'm thankful for tennis and the ability to rest afterwards.
11/21/11: Thankful for We Are Marshall - one of the most powerful movies I've ever seen.
11/22/11: Thankful for the opportunity to have some fun cleaning Allie's house, and also the chance to get to see friends tonight!
11/23/11: So so SO very thankful for each and every one of my friends. You guys mean the world to me!
11/24/11: Today I'm thankful for everything I haven't yet mentioned: friends, family, possessions, memories, and more. God has blessed me with so much. Thank you, Lord! Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Here's hoping you all had a satisfying Thanksgiving meal and a great time visiting with your families. Now it's time to gear up for Christmas. One month, baby!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Missing

There's a small bulletin board that hangs on the wall in front of my desk. It only takes a simple look to see the many memories it holds. Jazz band, tennis, Adventureland trips, saxophone duets, best friends. Things I miss more than I can say. People I rarely see anymore. Events that will never now be more than memories. There's Prom junior year. That's when John and Ashley teamed up to do some hog mud wrestlin'. Oh and look! John, John, and I are swimming on the Wii while playing Mario and Sonic Olympics. Such wonderful moments...

A minute turn of my head and a graduation gift comes into full view. It's a black cardboard square with blue pie pieces puzzled together. Silver writing accompanies pictures of four of the greatest people on the planet, seen by the fifth as the closest friends one could ask for. These five people make up the senior delegation of the pie club, which has since faltered in our absence. Yet it will always remain strong and true as long as we hold true to each other. As stated on the sixth pie piece, "Without all five senior members the pie club isn't complete. [...] May the tradition never be forgotten as we grow older but never apart."
-Breanna Mathes, Ambassador

And now my screensaver pops up: a collage of the pictures and videos I've acquired throughout the past few years. There's Emily dominating the basketball court. That's our family reunited in St. Louis. Yes, Allie was pregnant with her now beautiful daughter. That's everyone at Neutral Groundz playing the 1649 version of Trivial Pursuit. That's Fernando Verdasco, one of the best professional tennis players in the world. You bet we went to the U.S. Open! And there are all the ink-soaked napkins and kleenexes we had to make use of at 11:00 at night when I decided to tip over my bottle full of India calligraphy ink. Just a sample of the many flickers of life I've experienced. Such wonderful moments...

I miss it. I miss them. I miss all of you. I miss the time when homework was annoying because it was irrelevant. I miss homework that was easy. I miss mathematical problems that had one simple solution and not ten different answers. I miss Galva. I miss basketball. I miss tennis, at least, tennis the way it used to be: without pressure. Without enormous expectations. I miss high school. I miss seeing my friends every day. I miss my room, with cool air conditioning in the summer and cozy heat in the winter. I miss my basement. I miss holidays that still let me return to a school where John Lorenzen played the saxophone, Olivia Leuschen played the flute, and Breanna Mathes ran faster than anyone around. I miss John Harris in Trig class. I miss Ben Grieme and cabbagighi. I miss Eric Rasmussen and le spot. I miss Ashley Drey and all of her horror movies. I miss my family: Matt and all of his big brother-ness; Allie and all of the fun we had with the Disney game; Caleb and all of his accents (yes, every single one of them); Christian with his fake burping; and Emily, even though she was never in the house. I miss Mom, with all of her cooking. Such amazing cooking! I miss real food. I miss having my father as a pastor, but also as a coach.

And yet, one of the things I miss most dearly is how different I was back then. How innocent everything was. How truly simple life was. And now... now things are important. I have responsibilities. I have a stupid banking assignment due Thursday that I haven't even started!

I miss it. I really do.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Visiting A Jackrabbit

One week ago today, Breanna and I had the wonderful opportunity to visit John in Brookings, South Dakota. SDSU played Indiana State at home so we were able to enjoy a full performance from the marching band: a fantastic halftime show and all the music they played between downs and quarters. It was such a great trip, and a much-needed one at that. Here are just a few samples of the fun we had.

After running at John and screaming his name like a hyena.

John showing off his amazing campus.

The band. In a word, greatness.

Man of the hour right there. Dead center.

Just a few pictures. It was a fantastic weekend. Hopefully we'll be able to do it again, except next time, we'll bring the whole posse.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Hmm...

"Dreaming of one who has passed is their way of telling you they are ok."

I read this on Facebook and it got me thinking. I'm not going to say anything concerning my opinion, but I'm curious about what you all think of this statement... Any thoughts?

Saturday, September 17, 2011

When?

When is it that we find what we're looking for? When do we know if we've made the right choices? When do we accept that change is inevitable and that it's already happening? When can we be satisfied with our decisions? When - through all the tears, the hardships, the pain - will we finally reach the other side?

When can we let go? When does it dawn on us that something that once was is no longer? When can we pick up the shattered pieces? When can we put them back together?

When does life make sense? When does our path ever become straight? When will the going get smooth or enjoyable? When - through all the tears, the hardships, the pain - will shards of our scars become pages of our journey?

When?

Monday, September 12, 2011

Hold Your Horses

There has been some confusion about the future of my blog. I plan to continue posting stuff for a while yet. I apologize for being so confusing, especially with the beginning statement of my last post. That was just the end of my writing portfolio entries, not the end of my blog entirely. I was only blogging about those papers because I had nothing else to say, but hopefully events will happen in the next few days that will allow me to talk about other things. For now, the blog is still alive.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Past Brilliance Part III

This is the last installment of my writing portfolio. I hope you've all enjoyed reading some of my work.

I.
7-6. He had barely pulled the set from my fingertips. I’d had him on the ropes, but just like every other time, he had pulled off two magical shots in a row to draw the set even. Then, with an ace serve and a magnificent service return, he jumped in the air as his cry of “Come on!” echoed through the stadium. His 6’1” frame swaggered back to his chair with that air of ultimate supremacy he held over other players. Yet he was not arrogant. He was not selfish or stubborn. His sense of humility and grace went hand-in-hand with that air of superiority. Nobody had anything but respect and awe for this man. He was the greatest player to ever walk this earth. He still is and always will be the greatest player ever to play the game. And I had almost taken a set off him. It was a bittersweet moment, for if he got that first set under his belt, he only played stronger. Faster. Smarter. Better.

*

So close! I was one point away from taking the second set! Man, you just can’t let him off the hook. If that lob had been an inch deeper, I could have walked back to my chair with a sense of equality. Or something close to it. With that second set gone, I began to realize that, all things considered, he would always be better than me. All the work I had put into getting to this point just couldn’t reach the level of skill, wit, elegance, and speed that he used to dominate every opponent.

I got up from my chair and walked to the baseline. I had two options. I could fight as hard as I could to make this match as intense as possible, or I could give in, considering how steep of an incline I had to conquer. I chose the former. The American spirit in me cheered me on, urging me to fight to the death. I could hear my name being chanted. I took a deep breath. The crowd began to mount a final roar, hoping I would rally. Suddenly, there was a loud crash.

My roommate had dropped his suitcase. I rolled over. 12:45. I had to get up in less than seven hours. Roger Federer’s face flickered in front of mine, and I smiled to myself, realizing that I had come so close to beating my idol.
II.
Calm. Peace. Brightness. I stood up. Trees of all colors swayed gently in the breeze, whose breath delicately blew across my face. Sunlight filtered through the high canopy, its fingers gently caressing the ground below. A certain tree beckoned to me, its branches swaying hypnotically. I walked towards it. Golden pears glowed in the dancing beams of the sun. I was under it now. I slowly reached up and plucked one of the radiant fruits. I held it in my hands, admiring its perfection. Sparkling light bounced off my treat as I slowly brought it to my mouth.

A sliver of light landed upon my face as my roommate went off to brush his teeth, leaving the door ajar. 12:49. I could almost taste that juicy, succulent pear and I longed to fall asleep again and return to that place. I buried myself in my blankets.
III.
Clouds flew past me. I was weightless. Flying? I couldn’t be. Suddenly, I broke through. Mountains loomed in the distance. I looked down and gasped. Rugged terrain passed underneath as I soared above. Fields, meadows, forests, houses – all passed beneath as I blazed over them. I dove. I rushed toward the ground with such speed that wind didn’t even whistle in my ears. I was a silent predator. An invisible ambassador of flight. I pulled up with such poise and strength the world had never known. I slowed enough to wave to a small child playing in a garden. He waved back with a huge smile on his face. I winked and was off again. I angled up and ascended to the top of the tallest mountain. Everything was a blur. Suddenly, I was falling. Cold air engulfed my body.

I shivered. My blankets were falling. I lunged for them as they plummeted toward the floor. Success! Yet their pleasurable warmth could not stop the shiver running down my spine. Falling. The idea terrified me. 3:45.
IV.
Blood flowed freely from the gash that had been torn into his upper lip. His arm had been broken and now it lay there, bent into a grotesque shape that should never be on the human body. His body lay crumpled, defeated. So broken. So lifeless. Bruises numbered with the freckles that populated his arms, neck and face. The only signs of life were the short, gasping rasps that escaped the threshold of his mouth. And there I was. They tied me to a chair. They made me watch as they picked him up and slowly beat the life out of him. I had no power. I had no control. I sat there and watched him slowly buckle. I was crying: tears covered my face. I kept shouting for them to stop. I pleaded with all my might. Yet my attempts were futile. Another punch to his gut. Another slash at his face. His groans were the worst part. After a while, he gave in. He fought no more. The spark that had initially glowed upon his face had burned out. With a final, helpless glance at me, he collapsed. But they didn’t stop. They kicked his sides. They hit him with bats. They slugged him with crowbars. His back. His legs. His head.

Suddenly, there was silence. They stood over him, gloating over the body they had just shattered. I wanted to look away, but the sight of his broken body, once so strong and virile, was something I had never hoped to witness. With a final jab at his stomach, they left the room. I was all alone. My best friend was dead. From somewhere in the ceiling a spotlight was switched on, illuminating me in a small circle of unfeeling, unforgiving light. I squinted in the sudden brightness. Someone was approaching. He was holding a knife in his hand.

The first rays of dawn peeked in through the window. 6:50. His face, so full of agony and hurt, swam in front of me, his eyes fixing on me with such sadness that I had never expected to see. No. Please, God, no. I jumped out of bed and flew across the room to my desk. I had to make sure he was all right.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Past Brilliance Part II

This is the second part of my portfolio. It's the final draft of my fiction piece that was, to me, some of my best work. I hope you enjoy it.

~~~

Just keep going. Her face was perspiring as it never had, sweat stinging her eyes, but she forced her legs to keep turning over. Her entire body screamed at her to stop, take a breath, but she knew that if she slowed, he would catch her. If only I hadn’t snooped. Things were fine until I found out about his – No. She couldn’t think about that now. Her very existence depended on her mind being in one place. One false step and – No. She couldn’t think about that either.
The only problem was she had never been here before. Before tonight, she wasn’t even aware this place existed. Then again, there were a lot of things that had come to light tonight, and now the person she trusted most in the whole world was nothing more than a twisted, sinister madman, as dark and as crooked as the winding passageway through which she was running. If it weren’t for the small amounts of light that trickled through doors that appeared at random intervals on either side of her, she wouldn’t have made it as far as she did. Yet she could still hear him, steadily getting closer. His grunts echoed eerily off the walls, sounding as if they were everywhere at once. She didn’t even know if he was in front of her or behind her. For all she knew, he might pop out of any door and catch her. She kept running. And running.
But it wasn’t enough. She turned yet another corner, and there he stood, his dark silhouette hunched over and gasping for air. But just like a wolf eyeing a helpless victim, he stared at her with ever-burning eyes that held all the hate and anger in the world. Almost hungry eyes. She knew she should turn the other way, maybe try and outrun him, but her legs had shut down. Her heart was pounding in her ears, and she pleaded with her body to comply. Yet there was no response. He took a step forward. She closed her eyes and accepted her fate. Within seconds, he was on her.
*          *          *
                He was nowhere to be seen. Max scanned the bleachers, the parking lot, the concession stand, and the bathroom facilities. He couldn’t spot his dad anywhere: not talking to other fans, not arguing over prices at the concession stand, nothing. He just wasn’t there.
            But he promised. He promised he would come Max thought to himself. It’s the championship game. He promised he wouldn’t miss this one.
            “Strike one!” the umpire yelled. Crap! Pay attention! He stepped out of the batter’s box, took a deep breath, swung once, and re-entered his arena. This was his time, his moment to shine. This was his team, his field. Max had owned this sport since he could throw a baseball. And now it was his last game: the conference championship, final inning, one out, down one. Robert had just crushed a double into right-center and was poised on second, just waiting for Max to hit him home.
            A swing and a miss. “Strike two!” No! That was my pitch! Come on, Max! He stepped out again. Why aren’t you here, Dad? Why can you never make it to anything I participate in? Concerts, games, speech meets… He stepped back in the box. “Focus!” he said under his breath as the pitcher readied himself on the mount. There was the pitch, inside, just how Max liked it. A lights-out swing. Contact.
*          *          *
            “Hello?” The kitchen door shut behind him as he entered the house. “Mom? Dad?” He dropped his equipment down in the living room and went to search the floor for any sign of life. That’s odd. At least Mom is usually home by now, Max thought as he came out of his parents’ bedroom. He searched the basement. Nothing. Not even a load of laundry in the washer. The usual aroma of fresh, homemade bread was missing as he again went through the kitchen. No Wheel of Fortune was playing on the television. His mother wasn’t quietly humming to herself as she ironed his shirts.
            “Hmm…” He climbed the stairs to the second floor. Wait! What was that? A noise sounded from his father’s study.
            “Dad?” He knocked twice. No answer. “Dad! You in there?” He jiggled the doorknob. It was unlocked. He turned the handle and slowly pushed the door open.
            “Holy crap.”
            The room was a catastrophe. Books lay everywhere, some missing pages, others having no pages at all. The light fixture on the ceiling had been smashed, littering the ground with shards of glass. The desk had been overturned, its contents strewn about all over the room. Drawers had been emptied. Folders had been rifled through. Spots of red liquid dotted the floor and clung to the broken glass for dear life. The window on the far end had apparently been hit with something heavy, for a cracked web weaved darkness and faint moonlight into the room, casting an eerie glow on its contents. Another small ray of light passed right down the middle of the room, and Max turned to see a small beam of faint light running vertically up the near wall. A door? Since when has there been a door there?
            He started to make his way across the room, trying his best to avoid the broken glass. He had never seen his father’s study in such disarray. He bent down to examine the red substance more closely. His hair stood on end and a chill ran down his spine. Blood. Why is there blood on the floor of my dad’s study? And now that he was in the room, more and more blood kept showing up. It was on book pages, newspapers, broken glass, the desk, and even a little on the bookcases. And not just drops. There was a smudge by the outlet on one of the walls, and as Max drew closer to the hidden door, he noticed there was a small puddle of it in the room beyond. Fear slowly started to wash over him. As he reached the door, the hair on the back of his neck stood up. Someone was watching him. He wheeled around. Nothing. He scanned the whole room once more, and then turned back. He pushed the hidden door slightly and it creaked open.
            A small bulb hung from the ceiling, basking the small room in a faint yellow glow that illuminated numerous newspaper articles that were pinned to the walls. Pictures of different people with giant X’s through the middle were attached to each article. These individuals were strange to Max. He had never seen them before in his life, and he didn’t like the way each article they were attached to had a title dealing with murder. “Couple slain in park.” “Child found stabbed to death.” “Woman shot at point-blank range.” Max started to feel nauseous. He almost turned away and left, but then something caught his eye. From the far side, his mother gazed at him from a small photo. She must’ve been gardening. Her hair was disheveled, her hands were dirty, and her apron was torn. Yet she had the biggest smile on her face. She was always happiest in her garden, Max thought as a faint smile crossed his face.
            Then something else caught his eye. Many of the articles seemed to have a sentence highlighted vividly in blue. After perusing through some of them, he found that each highlighted sentence was the date and time each victim had been killed. And while Max still didn’t know any of these people, the times seemed oddly familiar to him.
            “How can that be?” he wondered aloud as he continued to read through each article. He searched his brain for a logical answer. And then it hit him. This one had been the time of his Christmas band concert last year. That one had been the starting time of his junior-year district baseball championship. That one had been his graduation ceremony! And they all had one thing in common.
            No. It can’t be. No. No way. Max felt like he was going to throw up. An unsettling fear had flooded his body, and he turned around to run from this horrific scene. He was just about out the door, when he stopped. Something wasn’t right. He slowly rotated back to face his mother’s picture. Unlike the others, there was no X on this one. No article accompanied the photo explaining how she was mercilessly killed by some raving madman. Tears began to well in Max’s eyes as the horrible realization came to him. He couldn’t take it any longer. He bolted from the room, and was just about to flee from his father’s study when he ran headlong into a shadowy figure that stood in the doorway. The collision sent both of them sprawling backwards.
            “Dad!” Max exclaimed as he righted himself. The shadowy form had gotten back on his feet and was staring at Max with such intensity that his gaze seemed to penetrate Max’s body and hit the wall behind him. He knows. He knows I know. He looked around for any chance of escape, but the only route was blocked by the hulking form that continued to watch Max with an almost hungry look. So many thoughts ran through Max’s mind, but he could only venture two words.
            “Why, Dad?”
            “Nosy, just like your mother. Didn’t go so well for her.” And with a sneer, he pounced.
*          *          *
            Breath came in short, raspy gasps. The cut on his arm bled profusely. His head was spinning from the book that had collided with it. He could barely stand. It had taken him ages just to reach the window. Yet he forced himself to stand there and look down to the ground a story below. There he lay, his dark form broken and beaten. His neck had twisted the wrong way upon contact, and now his figure lay crumpled in a heap on the sidewalk. The window hadn’t been able to withstand his body a second time and had broken right when impact was made. With a final, hateful glare, he had toppled backwards into the night. And now he was gone. He could do no more harm.
            Max found the telephone hidden underneath the desk. He dialed.
            “9-1-1, what’s your emergency?”

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Past Brilliance Part I

It's been quite a long time since my last entry. Things have been crazy these past few weeks and they only promise to get more chaotic, so I thought that while I have a moment, I'd share some of my writing from last year for a class I took. I think I'll break it up between the three final entries I turned in for my final portfolio. Here's the poetry section:

 “Row 24”

Polar opposites sit on either side.

One has chosen to opt for sanity
and drifts off to a world of dreams,
wishful thinkings, and faraway lands.

SILENCE.

The other is enjoying a rather
catchy beat if the rhythm her
foot is tapping on my leg is
any clue. Head bobbing,
fingers drumming, she allows
her mind to wander to
wherever the music takes her.

ENERGY.

Her head rests on her hand.
A sweater gently enfolds her
as her mind floats elsewhere.
Hair cascades down her face
as she slowly breathes in and out.

TRANQUILITY.

Her clothes shout even louder
than the baby a few aisles back.
She can’t stop moving, for the
music sends a pulse through her soul
that is just as alive as the one
flowing through her body.

LIFE.

And yet both sit on either side, allowing life to take them wherever it pleases.


*             *             *

True Art

The crowd applauds.
A cheer here,
a shout there.

And then silence.
Not a sound escapes a single mouth.
Breath itself is scarce.

Yet the players never stop
running back and forth,
emitting unearthly grunts with each swing.

Their feet, endless whirls of color,
pound the surface.
Rackets are swung with immeasurable force

And as they fly through the air,
they meet the only thing standing in the way
of victory and their wielder:

An opponent that lacks size
but is almost impossible to control perfectly.
A deceiving ball of fuzz

That never tires
and holds the power to determine the difference
between victory and defeat.


*             *             *


The Magical World of the Sky

A different world above the clouds.
A place without hurt, anger, or crowds.
Eternally weightless and ever-serene.
A utopia that shimmers with its own glorious sheen.

Floors of white cotton with softness assured.
The world down below is misty and blurred.
Occasional mountains, towering bright,
Displaying majesty, brilliance, and might.

Walls don’t exist; this world never ends.
No restrictions apply. Rules die, law bends;
Just clouds that lie dormant, suspended in time,
Forever revolving, effortless, sublime.

A world of pure light, of multiple shades;
The sun forming rainbows that fall in cascades.
The sun’s gold is here too. It takes up all space.
It kisses the clouds and caresses the sky’s face.

It flies through the air, illuminating each crack,
Beating darkness to rubble, not leaving its track.
Fear shudders and leaves, imagination roams free.
Confinement’s not here: only His cousin to see.

Yet mystery still exists. Its presence is sly,
For this is the magical world of the sky.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Friendly Advice

Being a friend is sometimes a thankless opportunity. Yet we continue to sacrifice what we want for what they need. Why? Because they mean the world to us. They give us their time, their patience, their understanding - their ears, their shoulders, their hearts. It's only natural that we return the favor. Sometimes it goes unnoticed, but when they return that affection, we simply glow. We fly into a realm that is entirely our own, for in that one second, that one instant, we taste heaven.

We don't always know if we're doing the right thing. Part of life is finding out, even if it means realizing that we're doing something wrong. Yet realizing this is the only way we can improve. Realizing that we are making a mistake is the only way to fix whatever it is that's going wrong: with our friends, our families, and even our lives in general.

It is for this reason that friends are so important. The support they provide, the strength they give, and the confidence they inspire allow us to accept ourselves, even when we do make those mistakes. After all, we're only human. We all make mistakes. "It's how we go about fixing them that matters." The way we choose to act reflects our innermost being. Our innermost being is affected by those we love, for such an image is strengthened by their courage and motivation. Yet it can also be weakened by neglect, and therein lies the essential part of friendship: love. Friendship isn't only one of the greatest opportunities, it's also one of our greatest responsibilities, and as such, we must put every effort into being the best friend we can be. To everyone.

Food for thought.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Time Just Never Slows Down

I can't believe it's already my last day of vacation. It seems like it was only a few hours ago that I got off of work last Wednesday. It was such a glorious occasion. It was even a fast day at King's Pointe. Well, you can just imagine what time has done since then. From Saturday on, things kind of blurred together. There's not a single fiber in my body that wants to go back to work, so I'll give out this one final hoorah to recap what has been a memorable break.

Thursday: The day of Ames. I woke up at 8:15 and got ready to accompany Olivia and Breanna to Ames where Olivia was to show us her little corner of the world. We were off by 9:30. The car ride there was quite interesting, for in those two or so hours, I discovered that Olivia and Breanna both experience road rage, rain isn't always a dampener, and Cheerios is pretty much my new favorite cereal. We arrived in Ames amidst clouds and sunshine and got the quick tour of the outskirts of campus. We then drove to some apartments that one of Olivia's friends was staying in. There we met up with Allyson and Mischa and proceeded to lunch at Panera. On the way, we picked up another friend of Olivia's: Jared Knight, the vice president of Iowa State's student body. If it helps, he reminded Breanna and me of a cross between Ben Grieme and Mark Cronin. He was quiet at first, but as soon as he realized that Breanna and I are two of the coolest people ever, he opened up a little.
Panera was wonderful. Afterwards, we dropped Jared back off at the Union since he had lots of freshman orientation stuff to do. What followed was the most extravagant tour of a college campus I've ever had the opportunity to take. I'm convinced that I didn't go on as many college visits as I should have in high school. Iowa State has one of the most amazing campuses I've ever seen. Breanna and I were overwhelmed with all Iowa State had to offer. Instead of going to Greece, we might just have to transfer to Ames.
We then made our way to Main Street where we sampled some spectacular cupcakes, inhabited the most comfortable couch ever, and ate at Old Main where we met up with Giff and five more of Olivia's group. It was quite a group. It was so much fun seeing Giff again. I'm pretty sure that if the waitress had been paying more attention, we might've been thrown out. We sure were acting like a couple of five-year-olds. Just like old times, huh?
After spending some time in another apartment, which belonged to the friends we met up with at Old Main, it was time to say goodbye. After bidding farewell to Olivia's friends, and after playing some updated rock-paper-scissors with Ben, Olivia, Breanna, and I hopped back into the car and drove back to northwest Iowa. It was a comfortable ride back, and we all arrived home exhausted, but thankful for such a wonderful day. That was my Thursday.

Friday: The day of Okoboji. What a day it was. I woke up around eight to prepare for what promised to be a spectacular day of fun on the lake. John arrived around nine and after making a quick pitstop at the bank, we were off. (In my grandmother's Malibu since my golden wonder was being repaired).
The drive up was quite interesting. You never know what you're gonna get with John in the car. We made a quick detour to Alta so he could drop off his saxophone, then completed the journey about an hour later. We arrived amidst some cloud cover, but it was a warm day and rain was not an imminent threat. (This was good for both of us since neither of us had any motivation to put on sunscreen).
Introductions were brief. At first, I was worried that it would be a little awkward for John since he would be surrounded by Eggers, but as I've alluded to in previous posts, John is quite an enjoyable guy and they all liked him instantly. We were soon on the boat heading to get gas. While waiting, we conquered what is called, in those parts, the Iceberg. We climbed to the top and jumped into the unknown, some of us having more luck than others. (John continually slipped and belly/back flopped. It was a fate we all suffered every now and again). But then it was time for tubing.
John and I went first. Instead of Uncle Carl driving, however, Aunt Sue took over the wheel. Carl and Brody were in St. Louis for a basketball tournament, so it was John, me, Aunt Sue, the girls, and some of their cousins from California. We volunteered to go first and we climbed onto the tube. Oh man, were we in for quite a ride! I had the opportunity of going last summer, too, so I knew what to expect. To some degree. Turns out Aunt Sue is quite a driver and we were soon hanging on for dear life. I felt so bad going over bumps because I'm not as strong as John so my grip would sometimes weaken and my forearm would go flying into his face. I shudder to think if the opposite had happened, considering his forearm is the size of my thigh.
We went for about three rounds, meaning we fell off three times and then called it good. Our fingers were burning with the strain of hanging on for such an intense ride and I had a tube burn on my elbow after the first five minutes. Quite the usual. We climbed into the boat and let the cousins have their turn. They weren't nearly as professional as we were, but that's to be expected when you get young 'uns trying to do grownup jobs.
Dark clouds forced us inside after about an hour-and-a-half on the water. We settled into cold meat sandwiches, carrots, and mac-n-cheese. John took this opportunity to show us his ability to make sandwiches as tall as the Empire State Building. It was pretty entertaining.
After lunch, we walked around the lake and went to Arnold's Park to discover that Craig Morgan was holding a concert there that night. We searched for him but were unsuccessful in spotting the celebrity. We went back to the condo and sat around until we decided to boat over to the Barefoot Bar. We took our time getting there and I got to go tubing one more time with Brittany. Again, forearm in the face. I should probably work on that.
After relaxing with refreshments and browsing the shops, we headed back to the condo where we got ready to head back. We said goodbye to the Urbandale cousins and their cousins and started our drive home. We stopped in Spencer at the Taco Bell and got some wonderful, warm Mexican food. We also stopped in Alta again so John could practice a saxophone duet with his sister. Since he wouldn't let me listen, I chatted with Katie's husband, Kyle, and his parents. They're a very nice family, and they sent us off with oatmeal M&M cookies. Our final stop was at Allie and Justin's house. I wanted to visit their house, but I mostly just wanted to hold Chloe for a little bit and give John that same chance, but sadly she had just been put down for the night so we left soon after arriving. We got back to Galva around 8:30 and John drove back to Holstein. What did I learn that day? John puts enough food on his sandwiches to feed the entire nation of Zimbabwe. That was my Friday.

Saturday: A day that was supposed to see me get all muddy playing volleyball turned into a day that saw me dressed up and sitting in a funeral home. John's grandmother passed away last week so he was not able to join our volleyball team. However, mud volleyball was cancelled due to there not being enough teams to compete, so I travelled with my mother to Anthon for John's grandma's funeral. There were certainly a lot of people there. I'm surprised we were able to find a seat. It was a really nice service and I was able to hear John's duet after all. It was a beautiful arrangement of one of my favorite hymns: How Great Thou Art. John looked the part in a stellar black suit that would even shame an ensemble worn by Preston Sunderman, and he was even nice enough to come back and say hi to us before it all started. On our way home, we stopped at the ice cream place in Correctionville for a treat. The rest of the day saw me lounge around and do some much-needed relaxing. My whole entire body hurt from the previous day's excitement, so it felt nice to sit down and be lazy. That was my Saturday.

Sunday & Monday: These two days were the same as Saturday afternoon and evening. I watched movies, I read my book, and checked Facebook way too many times. The only thing worthy to mention was that last night I finally got to play some tennis against my father and beat him 6-0 6-0 under the lights in Holstein. It was great to finally get out again and I felt pretty good throughout the entire contest. That was my Sunday and Monday.

So here I sit on the last day of my vacation. I knew it wouldn't last long and it really has gone by very quickly. Yet I was able to have a fantastic five days. And now it's my sixth and final chance to have a relaxing, pleasant day with my family. Today, my goal is to have a pleasant sendoff into the two-and-a-half weeks left of work. Only fourteen days left at King's Pointe. It's going to be unbelievably busy, but I think that if I take it one day at a time, things should be all right. There's my recap, and here's me saying that I hope all your summers are exciting and that you're all able to spend lots of time with friends and family. Cole out.